一切结束了

经过今晚一切已经结束了。
走了那么久也到此为止了。
我再也不会对你任何期望。

到底是什么?

我不是你肚里的那条虫。
我不会知道你心里想什么!
我希望你能和我坦白。

别再为他流泪

最近爱上了这首歌"别再为他流泪"。
这首歌是由梁静茹演唱，作曲是易桀齐，作词是黄婷。
以下是这首歌的歌词。

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好就算了心情很干脆
他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他 不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉
你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后管他是谁

强颜欢笑

原来在别人面前强颜欢笑是那么难。

情绪化

最近我的情绪是很不稳定。我也知道是什么原因令我情绪不稳定。

很多时候心里的我一直告诉我不要为了这些事搞到心情不好。
但是我总是那么脆弱还是在想问题。
为什么我不能那么容易的放下呢?

Finally manage to access my blog

Recently in China GFW block Blogger. It has been 2 weeks that I can't access my blog. Finally search on the web and found out the solution how to bypass and access to the blog.

The page is abit funny but better than I can't access it

突然很想你 - 五月天

Minor Surgery..

There is an ulcer grow in my mouth and this ulcer unlike the normal ulcer. Usually when we have ulcer, we gargle with salt water then u will feel abit pain at the ulcer. Where my ulcer even u put a patch of salt there, don't feel any thing. This getting me worried and I told my colleague about it. She told me better go hospital see doctor and check out what happen.

Since today is off day so I went to the hospital and consult the doctor. This is my first time seeing doctor in China. I get myself register at the counter and go to the relative department to wait for the doctor. When my turn the doctor check on me and said that I need a specialist doctor to check on me. At that moment, I feel so damn worry and i think it must be very serious that until need a specialist to check on me!

Finally my turn to see the doctor. He just checked and start preparing the surgery stuff. I don't even have a chance to say No to the surgery -.-" Then the used a cloth cover my face and the cloth have a hole and the doctor anesthetic my mouth and start removing the ulcer. I can hear the sound of pulling stitches.

The surgery very fast i think it lasted 15 minutes and the total bill of the surgery and medicine is RMB 310.

This is really a new experience for me and I hope this is the last 1!!! I do not need to go through it!

转机 - 潘玮柏

一首我蛮喜欢的歌。 潘玮柏虽然是台湾人，但他唱粤语唱得不错。

Lonely

I feel very lonely...=(
Closed friends not around me..
Family not around me...
=(

原来我最爱的人是你不是他

这是一首我很喜欢的歌。原来我最爱的人是你不是他，仿佛说出我的心声。

1 week

Time flies so fast 1 week past means that time to go to Qingdao! I'm gonna miss my family, my friends and food in Malaysia. This round go don't know when I will return back to Malaysia. Probably next year only come back unless my company send me back to Malaysia for work.

I start missing everyone...................................................

For my dear friend - Xron Sng

I'll always miss you.

You always my good buddy.

May u rest in peace..................................................

Finally finish packing!

Finally I finished packing for my stay in China. Tomorrow I'll be taking the morning flight to Beijing and transit to Qingdao. By the time I reach Qingdao will be 8pm. I guess when I reach hotel should be 10 something. Oh gosh...come to think about it is very tiring!

The best thing is the next day I need to go office. The driver come and pick me up at 7am. I guess I need catch some sleep as much as possible when I'm on the flight but I guess I'll be watching movie instead...=P

From tomorrow onwards is a totally new start for me! I'll be on my own already. I'm missing my family and friends. I'm thinking how am I going to survive?

Gift from my fellow colleagues...

Today is my last day in Cuscapi. Although the time here is short, I feel sad to leave cause we are getting closer to each other!

Few of close colleagues Caryn, Cheryl, Evelyn, Jason kor kor (my hero if you read my blog earlier), Josephine and Shirley bought me a farewell gift. They are very sweet, they gave me a scaft. The gift wrap nicely with all those touching words. Guys you all really know what I need and that's a perfect gift for me cause now China is winter and is cold. With this gift it already warm my heart!

U guys make me start missing you all already. =(

Front part of the gift. Every one wrote down their wishing words.


Back of the gift, some of them even wrote at the back!


Side of the gift and some of them even wrote at the side.


Here is my gift

Start counting down...

I shall start counting down the days now. I've made the decision to leave Malaysia and work in China. All these happen very fast until I also don't know how to react on it but at the end I accepted the job offer and I'm going to work there at least for 2 years.

I'll start my new job on 5th of January 2009 and I'll be flying to China on 4th January 2009.

Now I start missing my family and friends in Malaysia when come to think about it. =(

爱没错，错的是人

爱没错，错的是人。
任何的爱都没错，错的是人。
可能有的是相逢恨晚，对方已是别人的丈夫，已是别人的妻子。
可能有的是爱上不该爱的，有的爱是不允许的。

往往很多时候我们都爱错了人。

妳在谁身边，都是我心底的缺

最近看了本书名为“妳在谁身边，都是我心底的缺”。书名把我吸引而买下这本书。
看完这本书觉得女主角很倔强。
她的性格和我有点相似的。幸运的她遇到她爱的人而我还在等待着。
在书里，我特别喜欢这一句“虽然爱不到，但是仍然爱，默默的爱，深藏不露的爱，用我最自己的方式爱。”
不管对方爱不爱你，只管用自己最真的方式去爱对方也不去计较回报。

付出

你付出的不等于你想得到的。
我一直想只要付出不要计较得到多少。
说得容易但要做却很难。
原来没有回报的感情是很吃力。
友情也是一样。
很多时候我觉得只要我付出和不去计较来对待我认识的人。
别人也会因为你的不计较和无限的付出而去利用你。
这是我觉得把我伤得最深的一刻。

洋葱 杨宗纬

这是我最近很喜欢的一首歌。
歌词写得很动人， 每次我听这首歌心中有一种感觉。